So This Is Goodbye

This one isn't mine but I wish it was....

So This Is Goodbye

~ Stina Nordenstam

So this is goodbye
So this is how you say it
These are the words
It's the voice you're using
It's the picture you've seen

So this is goodbye
So this is how you say it
This is the time it takes you
It didn't take you a lot now did it?
It didn't hurt you a lot now did it?

So this is goodbye
So this is how you spell it
Where you place it in your mouth
What happens if I didn't hear you?
What happens if it wasn't serious?

Well I was around
Maybe it was you I came to see
Maybe it was you who invited me

I remember your eyes were on me

I remember your eyes were on me

I remember your eyes were on me

I remember your eyes were on me

goodbye......

Patience

Waiting. Always waiting.
It's midnight and I'm still pacing
the house

waiting waiting

This train is taking too long
It's not my way to be patient
Winter months drag by and I'm still

waiting

I don't always see why I wait
I just know that I do
and the same repeated phrase comes from you

"Not now. Too soon.
Be patient. You need room.
At the end of the winter and
the end of the night
you will finally glimpse
what was hidden from your sight
So keep waiting for me..."

And I see now that I will always be

waiting

The Dance

I don't dance to anyone else's music
I've got my own moves too
Coz I'm free to be whoever I am
Whoever I want to be.

Held down too long
by the critique of the world
it's now time to step along

forget the rest
forget the best

Coz at the end of the day
I am just me....

Flaws

We used a saw to cut this skin
and find what flaws lay within.
We searched so hard to find the source
of what went wrong and why all this remorse.

But we found nothing to give a clue
to the reason for such a problem so you
stitched the skin back into place
and I forced a smile back on my face.

Comparison

Comparison pulls us down;
makes us low.
Comparison is all about show.
And the inadequacies we feel
come from within - not without
so now it is time to
sort yourself out.

Towards Zero

The fatal flaws
that hide within our souls
Revealed by storms
that tear apart
the fragile coverings
that contain our secrets..
Of darkened past.

Crippled feet walk tortuous paths
thorns rip tender flesh
and pain is but a distant memory....

These steps move closer
to insight.
The counter moves down towards zero -
It seems our time is short
We must fit a life time into one day....

Fences

I despise this mundane prose.
Keep your lies interesting, poetic,
because even this 'realism'
is only a pale shade of the truth.

Crooked fences climb higher
and build a barrier between us and the world.
But I'm not the person I was before,
and I don't seek your approval anymore.....

My Ivy House

I'm getting back.
Getting back to the place
I wanted to be.
Getting back home
but home has changed for me.
The house still looks as it did before.
The walls still hold the structure while the ivy
moves in twisted tangles over the bricks.
And I realise....
Home is not what has changed.
It's me.

What is Love?

We say we don't want to interfere
We say we don't want to stir the waters
and move the mud that lies beneath -
But how can we love and stand by
while the ones we love move towards
an ill-fated future?

That is not Love.

Love is words

Love is action

Love is life

Gone

I'm going round in circles,
spinning my way through thoughts unspoken.
It's hard to find an answer to the problem,
and fix what is now broken.

But now, using this knowledge about you;
making these choices and mistakes too,
learning from these faux-pas
being realistic and not wishing on a star........

When will you stop living in fear?
Get your act together or I'm outta here.....
And as I sit amid this sea of faces
I realise we're heading different places......

Heart and Head

House. Attic. Ladders. Stairs.
Locked doors. Overgrown gardens,
shared with friends.
Journeys taken
Beliefs are shaken

What do these dreams mean?

Searching for these answers
learning to see my mind
perhaps I am scared of what I will find -
or maybe I already know the answer?

They say love is all you need.
That God supplies you with the love to feed you.
But what my head might know
my heart chooses not to follow
Can I get myself in sync
and match my heart with what I think?

The Light In You

The sound of you
I can hear it
I can feel it

The life in you
I can see it
I can feel it

All over you.......

The light in you
I can touch it
bathe in it too

Coz in that light of you
I am made clean
I am made new

And if this moment of insight
isn't enough for me
then I'll never be free.
I need your love
so cover me now
before I am gone -
lost in the flood......

Roads End

Sitting in the cemetery that day
A picture of life at its end
sucked dry of it's passion
By Loss and Love.
It's only a second so make it count.
Be Big. Make a name,
renew that old flame
Start a revolution,
Move against the grain.
Be original but don't stand out.
Earn your piece.
Earn you piece of this world
Then watch it decay
When you no longer inhabit
The temporary flesh that
Covers your soul.